Long Time

It has been nearly a month since I have blogged! I have quite a bit I have wanted to BLOG, but we currently do not have internet hooked up in our house. This makes it a little harder to blog since I have to be sneaky and do it at work. I also have pictures, but I think MY camera hooked up to my computer would be a little funny. Well today is Friday and most Fridays are pretty slow so I thought I would take a minute and do a quick catch up. One of these days I will post all of the other stuff I wanted to.

Well as you all know we are all in Burley now and have been for a while now. It has not been easy though. We have had our share of fights and questions of whether or not this what we want. Or even if we want to keeping fighting the elements together. It doesn't help that we have not sold our house. It seems like all the odds are against us and that this is not the place we were supposed to land.

The odds are not little either. Patrick is struggeling with school more than he ever has. I have to help him with simple things I know he already knows. School has been in session for 4 months now and he is just barely starting to make friends. There are days Matt hates his job and wants to quit and there are days he loves his job and this town.

This town, that is a whole thing all in its own. I have lived here now for almost 6 months I just can't seem to relax or have it feel like home. Maybe because I lived in the same town for 31 years and it will never feel like home no matter where I go.
Does Anyone who has moved away from their home town have a take on that?

To top all of this off I have began to question my career choice, which has been really hard for me to deal with emotoinally. I worked too hard to get here and question it. I made a lot of sacrifices and my family has made more sacrifices. For me to question it really hurts me. But them it makes me wonder, is it just not as challenging as I had hoped? not as rewarding as I thought it would be? Or am I questioning as a scape goat? I know my family is not happy here but stay because I like my job. If I hate my job will we go home? And if we go home will we all be happy? So that makes me wonder do I question because I feel my family has already sacrificed enough for my growth and it is time for me to sacrifice for their happiness?

I don't mean to complain nonstop, but it sure feels good to get my feelings out. Helps me sort it all out a little better!